Baby's growing!

This fisher price piano was not working for some time. Recently Dw changed the batteries and the music started to fill up the house again. This time round, baby girl no longer stares at it blankly, instead she now responds by aiming & kicking at the notes.

When I heard the tunes which were all so familiar, tears just welled up in my eyes. I do not know what overcame me suddenly but I was filled with so much love, so much emotion. I thought back to the days when we 1st brought baby girl home. She was sleeping but the moment she woke up, she was crying uncontrollably and nothing we did seemed to work. We switched on this piano which was placed at the foot of the playpen, in the hope that the tunes will distract her from crying. It didn't really help much, nevertheless it was a major part of her newborn months, since it was the toy that was with her right from the start.

In September 08 , we were all wishing time will pass faster so that she will outgrow her constant crying and start to interact with us. Yet now, 6 months later, I feel myself missing newborn Jilliane. My baby girl is slowly becoming a toddler. I miss the lost look in her eyes which seem to be asking 'where am I' but yet curious to find out more by staying awake from 7am - 11pm. It's a feeling that I find it difficult to put into words. I do not know if other mothers feels the way I do but I know fully well that I cannot rewind time and soon, my innocent baby girl will grow up into a teenager, an adult and eventually become a mother herself. I want to treasure my time with baby girl, holding her, hugging her, loving her and I pray to God for courage to be able to let go her hand when the time comes which will undoubtedly bring about more tears.

It is for the same reason why I hesitate having a 2nd child. I do not want to have to divide my attention for Jilliane or then again it could be simply because I am afraid that I do not know how to do it. I'm an only child and I never had to fight for my parents' attention. I do not know if I can ignore sibling rivalry & brush it off as a growing up phase.

We will leave this to God whom we know has had it all planned out, like how he had planned for Jilliane to be a part of us.

Rainbow

Saw this yesterday on my way home. Seldom have chance to see such a clear rainbow. So pretty.. Made a little wish..

JD's Passport

Thanks to Lovelle's mommy who encouraged me to submit a less than perfect DIY photo to ICA. I had taken JD's photo a few months back. However due to the uneven background on which JD was lying on, I hemmed & hawed for the longest time. But as what Lovelle's mommy said, no loss in submitting, worst case scenario they reject & I re-take.

Well, ICA accepted and I must say I'm extremely satisfied with its efficiency. I submitted on Wednesday afternoon and on Thursday morning, I received an email saying passport is ready for collection from Monday. And 3 cheers for the newly implemented e-appointment system! Before my dad could even park his car after dropping us off at the entrance, I called him to say we've collected and we're ready to go!

Now, we just gotta wait for Dw's travel schedule to be released.. *tapping fingers impatiently*

Happy Valentine's!

I'm at home blogging.. no fancy presents, no fancy dinner.. Just alone time with DW & JD.. btw, DW is playing with his Xbox & JD is sleeping.. really alone time :P But I had really nice chocs from Allan & Dx. Finished 5 in 1 sitting. Ghirardelli. Never heard of & a damn long name but tres delicieux, whoever is going to the States soon, get me those!!

Cereals Yum Yum

I had initially thought last weekend would have been very boring since we had to head straight home after baby girl's jabs and no going out either on Sunday to ensure that she's fully rested to prevent any onset of fever.

However, seeing that there was no imminent probability of fever nor crankiness when we reached home, I decided to embark on the long anticipated affair of starting baby girl on cereals. Afterall Doc Cheng has given the green light. My initial intention was to start only in the middle of the week and I had taken a week's leave just for this purpose but I guess my worries were unfounded..

So armed with my weaning bowl & soft tip spoon, I fed her the 1st mouthful. And boy, did she love it! She must have been waiting so long for this day!

Noodle & me

Ch U is showing some helicopter Hkg serial and Dw recognised one of the actors whom I had taken a photo with.

It was some 15 years back when I was on the way to San Francisco with a transit in Hong Kong. At the SQ check in counter, Val nudged me that 2 Hkg actors were checking in too. Since at that time I was only into the likes of Kirk Cameron & Debbie Gibson, I had no inkling who she was talking about so I just brushed it off.

Val & me had the centre seats and when the plane was almost full, Val was so excited that there were 2 empty seats next to us as that would mean a possibility that the 2 Hkg actors will be sitting there.

This photo says it all. Probably not popular enough at that time to warrant a business class seat :P