Bali

this post has been in my draft folder for the longest time... just didn't have the energy to upload the photos..

We've gone & we're back. A short 3 day vacation.

The villa we stayed in was great! Service was excellent, location was convenient with food & shops just outside but yet it was really quaint, away from the hustle & bustle of busy Jln Legian.

It wasn't a perfect trip. I was in my 1st trimester and still feeling pretty much nauseous almost the whole day. Dw was down with a very bad throat and cough. If it weren't for the fact that we had to use up our Krisflyer points before expiry, we would never have booked the trip more than 6 months ahead.

But both of us still made it a point to enjoy ourselves and to make this trip a memorable one for JD. Afterall, this could potentially be our last family vacation for 2011 with this totally unplanned & unexpected pregnancy. We would need to cancel our UK trip in July (I'll be abt 30 weeks and as much as I really wanna be there for C's wedding - my 1st English wedding and as much as I feel so guilty for jeopardizing JD's 1st chance of being a flower girl, there was just no way that I could do the long haul flight at that stage)

It didn't help that JD refused to walk for the entire trip, saying that the floor was dirty and she didn't want her shoes to get dirty. Dw was frustrated at some point but he still gave in to her demands. I tried to carry her every once in a while but to carry a 14kg load & walk on badly paved path was abit too much for me to handle & I often gave up after 5 mins. It was great relief for him when we had a personal driver for the 2nd day, bringing us to Ubud & Jimbaran. And whilst she was driving me nuts whilst seated in the car as one minute she wanted to sit on my lap facing the road, the next she wanted to face me, as per Dw, it was only fair after all the carrying he had to do.

But I'm sure JD had a great time, judging from these photos. She had a great time having her dinner by the beach at windy Jimbaran. She kept wanting to swim in the beautiful pool in our villa and squealing with delight when she was able to swim from end to the other (with the help of fairy wings of course!). She had a great breakfast of ham, sausage & scrambled eggs for 2 straight days. And she had a wonderful time running around our spacious villa, space which she doesn't get back home.

Remind me again?

Can someone pls remind me again... why am I pregnant? Ok ok, apart from the fact about birds & bees, I somehow had forgotten about the tiring 1st trimester, the clumsy & painful 3rd trimester, the sleepless newborn nights, the fat fat body etc etc.

This pregnancy is taking its toll on me. Maybe it's age catching up with me. Apparently 3yrs do make a difference. I'm feeling so lethargic. I can hardly swallow & smell food without feeling the need to gag. Add that to having to deal with a feisty 2yr+ toddler and it sure doesn't make life any rosier.

I hardly have the energy to shop and I just want to lie in bed ALL DAY. I think about the freedom that I will lose once again and the lifestyle compromise that I need to have and I get all emotional & depressed.

Up till this day I can't believe that I actually got myself pregnant, with no planning at all. If you knew about me, my lifestyle, my biological make up, you will know that it's almost impossible for me to get pregnant, much less without any proper planning or preparation.

So I can only attribute this to God's will. So yes, I treasure this little one in me and I am excited at his/her arrival. I know my heart will melt when I see this little one & carry him / her in my arms for the very 1st time.

Meanwhile, I pray for the little one to grow well and for God to give me the strength to survive well for the coming months.

Jd's very own!

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